My husband recently preached a sermon series that really was incredible (I know I’m probably a little bias but others also said it was awesome! #proudwife ;)). The main point he made throughout it was:
“We fail because we quit too soon”.
That really hit me as I replayed my past. I have quit on so many things in my life. Growing up, I never really stuck with anything and I regret that a lot. Because of that, I have carried it into adulthood now. I fail because I get tired, doubt myself, loss motivation, get bored with it, don’t plan well or just don’t have a good direction set. But my choices and not sticking through with things not only affects me but my husband, my kids and those around me. I realized so much of it has to do with my lack of confidence in myself and my choices. I doubt myself and my abilities, whether it’s my research that I’ve done or my intelligence to be able to do it. Instead of just pressing through, I back out or jump to the easy route. Instead of being steadfast, I waver. Instead of trusting and keeping my focus on God, I get distracted by the waves and start sinking. Then I somehow wonder why I’m sinking or overwhelmed, when I’ve taken my eyes off the One who gives me that solid ground to walk on.
Sometimes I fail at things because it’s just not the right season and sometimes I fail because I just stopped trying.
Now that the Lord has showed me this though, what am I going to do with the knowledge? Am I going to keep running lacking confidence? Or am I going to change my course I’ve been on and instead run with confidence and pushing through even when things get hard. Practically speaking, when my kids whine or refuse to do their chores, am I going to keep at it even when its easier to sometimes do them myself? When I get off track on meal planning and cleaning, am I going to push it off for another day to figure it out? When my toddler is pushing limits and I’m exhausted and don’t want to deal with anymore discipling, am I going to correct or “pretend” I didn’t see and go look at something on my phone? These are the obstacles I have in my races. Everyones looks different but it all comes down to running well and not quitting even in what seems to be something small.
Running in a way to win the race and not quit before the end.
Don’t you know that the runners in a stadium all race, but only one receives the prize? Run in such a way to win the prize. Now everyone who competes exercises self-control in everything. However, they do it to receive a crown that will fade away, but we a crown that will never fade away. Therefore I do not run like one who runs aimlessly or box like one beating the air. Instead, I discipline my body and bring it under strict control, so that after preaching to others, I myself will not be disqualified.” 1 Corinthians 9:24-27
How is my self control? Am I just beating the air or running aimlessly? We have just one life. One race to run. How do I want to run it? Do I want to be distracted by all the other around me running and how they’re running? This doesn’t mean I can’t glean knowledge from others and their experiences. Or encourage others in their running of the race. Instead it’s me not comparing myself to other people or doubting my confidence in the course I’m on. We are each different and have different situations. But we all add to the body of Christ in a beautiful way.
I have confidence and assurance knowing that, in my God there is no shadow of turning. He can bring consistency in my inconsistency. Thank you, God, for that!